you are a beautiful soul and don’t let anyone tell you different, I understand completely how you are feeling. You want the outside of you to match how you feel on the inside. Okay first you need to know you need help which you did so congrats you already dealt with the first big step which is the hardest now you you need to find some who you trust to share about your feelings. he or she maybe shock but trust me it is worth it for support when needed. Don’t limited how many people who tell, just make sure they are trusted. If you are in high school a school counselor is a safe bet. whenever you get the urge to cut talk to the person or people who you told about your cutting. always have a hotline number on you. They are there for a reason, they are there to help. Plus they are easy to find. Get rid of any objects have used in the past for cutting. Try hiding the objects to places that takes time for you get to, if you can’t remove them. Remember cuting is a impulse feeling a minute or two can clear your head. you need to find the “Triggers” of cutting. The moment you have the urge to cut yourself, stop and think of what just happen, then flag as a “trigger”. try to avoid triggers and when you can’t make sure you are able to contact to your support buddies. If you need to cut yourself try a less harmful way. for example Wear a rubber band at all times and snap at your wrist when ever you are urge to hurt yourself. It’s such a safer way to feel pain. find a safe way to express your feeling. Like I write music to express my feelings. the following are good examples and feel free to do as many as you want Drawing/painting, hitting a punching bag or something like it, listen to music the relates how you are feeling, write down your feeling in a journal, write songs/poetry, and lastly call a friend or a family member. try to distract yourself from your problems. here is a few of examples watching films/Tv, Doing some exercise, listen to music. take time to relax when feeling overwhelmed. it may just save you. and lastly learn to love life and yourself, there so much beauty in our lives as well in yourself. next time you are feel like there is no hope. Look at the star and look deeply. We are all meant to do so much good in this would but we are just waiting for our calling. there so much love in this world and I invite into it my dearest soul you are worth it. this I believe in. just know this my dear you never alone. if you ever need love then my door is always open. Share the love♥

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